Almost 23.05 pm, and I haven't sleep yet, may be it's still an episode of my guilt, after neglect my Chicantamus.
Anyway, I just have a conversation with my sister, first is our crazy plan to travelling, starting with my plan in tomorrow evening to go the book store in one of the mall here, to meet my favourite writer Trinity jeng..jeng..jeng..she wrote Naked Traveller and it successed to burn my passion to travel anywhere. Anyway, suddenly, we just plan to go Thailand next year. Horeee!!!sounds really great!!!really great!!!I try to force her to go this year but she said that she still need time to arrange it. I said, I want to work, I have my little own savings, so we can go as soon as possible. But, well, may be she is not as spontaneous as I am, so we decided next year. Really next year.yihaa.....
Suddenly, we talk about our aunt who live so far away and we haven't met for long time. Hope she is okay.
and, suddenly we talk about our childhood. suddenly, I told her, that the worst time in my life is when I was in junior high school. frankly, I had kinda confidence crisis. well, it's common to be one of the most well-known issues for teenager. I never had boyfriend when I was in junior high school. I was such a nerd!! I prefer to face thousands letters than I must talk to people. I felt like, I always have bad hair day. I was too tall, have really really dark skin, I was out of the fashion, and just in average academically.
But I really glad that I ever such an ugly duckling. That ugly duckling really teach me to love my self, when I minimize the interactions surround me, I was busy to build my character from inside. I consider, now, that ugly duckling-Era was my time to know my self better. I found my self, my own definition, what I hate, what I like, what I want to be, what I want go to, while all girls as young as me busy to get their first kiss, busy to hang out, busy to make their first date, busy talking the cutest senior ever in that school, and bla ...bla...
Beside, while I was an ugly duckling, I find my real real best friends forever, best friends that never last. so, they don't love how I look, but they love me, no matter what.
From now on, that ugly duckling has flown away. fly to somewhere, search another girl who need find her truly happiness, if she can make it.
I never regret that I ever be an ugly nerd duckling because that ugly duckling taught me so much, that ugly duckling was being part of me.
How about you,reader? Did you let your ugly duckling fly away, became a swan? or you still in ugly duckling-era? don't worry, let it works and finishes its job, you will find the same result like me, keep my words: never let people to tell you what to do, you have your own process, just like me with my ugly duckling :)
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